My Almost "Quarter-Life" Crisis

So this week I have had break down after break down dreading today. What exactly is today you may ask, well it's my 20th Birthday. Yes that's right TWO...ZERO... as in "You're 20! You're not a kid but an adult now!" or "Welcome to being one year away from being legal" etc. etc. Most everyone is THRILLED about turning the dreadful wonderful two oh. But not this girl nope, I was scared out of my mind. I cried every time I received a card in the mail reading "Welcome to your twenties!" or When people would ask me about how it felt to almost be 20 I would just run away before the tears had a chance to fall. I'm sure you're thinking what could be so awful about being 20, well honestly a couple days ago everything about it was awful ha! I felt as if my world was crashing down and I had no one at all. I have all these dreams that I want to happen in my twenties and I was no where near coming close to them. Thank goodness for my best friend Michelle who put up with me through this tearful time because I was a complete mess! Finally the night before my birthday as I sat alone in my empty apartment felling completely lonely and defeated I read a few amazing blogs (Savannah Smiles, Southern Simplicity, & Fear Less ) that helped me realize that God was not abandoning me on birthday or in my twenties at all. In fact he was preparing my way for all my hearts desires to come true if I put my full trust in Him alone.

"Delight yourself in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart." -Psalm 37:4

So here is the new mindset that I have awoken to for my Twenties

• I counted 20 people in my life that has made a huge impact and are incredibly important to me. This made me open my eyes to the people God has blessed me with but also made them feel important as well.
• I came to terms that my goals of getting married and having a family in my earlier twenties are not over just because I don't have this "official boyfriend" at this very moment. I realized that God is never late and never early but always right on time and everything will work out perfectly according to HIS plan and not my own.
• With that being said I have also stopped fretting and stressing over my "boy situation". I may not have the ideal relationship with titles and other things but I do have a boy that I care immensely about and would do anything in this world for. He is everything I have ever dreamed of and more and is so kind and gracious to me. Even though we are not at a place and time for the whole relationship thing I am content with my circumstances. "Not that I speak from want, for I have learned to be content in whatever circumstances I am." -Phil. 4:11 This is the season God has placed us in and fretting over the details will do nothing but make things worse.
• Finally I am content with my life and this season of my life being a single college student, in a different state and with the privilege of being a collegiate cheerleader. I have everything I could ever ask for and have been blessed with more people that care deeply than I ever could deserve.

So if you almost have a Quarter-Life crisis just take a deep breath, relax and pray. And it might take all week (hopefully you're not as stubborn as me) but you will get over that silly little pebble that you once thought was a mountain and you can view you're life and the people in it a little bit differently!


Have a blessed week!
Erin